So I called my grandma for her birthday on Sunday. She's a great lady and I really look up to her given that she's lived through so much and still has a great outlook on life. When I talked to her she told me two things.
1) My cousin Trevor's mother died about a month ago. She had had some kind of illness that was exaserbated by drinking alcohol. Of course I feel terrible for my cousin who is only a senior in college and has no lost both of his parents (My Uncle died while I was a senior in college from a severe heart attack). He's having to settle all the legal issues of her estate given that he's the only adult next of kin. I couldn't imagine going through that at any age but let alone before I'd even walked across the graduation stage into the real world.
2) My mother has quit drinking. She had gotten a DUI about a year and a few months ago and the punishment from the court included losing her driver's license and having to do some community service (all of which I think she should have done given that she could have killed someone!). She got involved at a church to perform her community service (scrubbing bathrooms and doing other things that if you knew my mother would be particularly painful). I suppose that the community service had some influence over her and she had been going to AA meetings.
All of this is good and I hope it does signify that she really is going to change and not drink again, but now the question comes up do I contact her now that I hear she's not drinking. I quit speaking to her over 2 years ago becuase of her behavior and the damage that it was causing to me and to other relationships in my life. On one hand I want to have the relationship with my mom mended, however, I'm not so excited about putting myself out there again with her. I had to go through a lot to resign myself to the fact that I may not talk to her again because she was hurting me.
Can someone really change? How do I know that she's changed for sure? Why wouldn't she contact me if she truly had changed?
These are just a few of the questions on my mind. I'm praying right now for wisdom to know what to do.
"I'm not where I need to be, but Thank God I'm not where I used to be!" - Joyce Meyer-
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Thankful Thursday- Life is just plain good!
This week has been a good week! I'm thankful for so much and it's a little hard to get it all down so I'll shoot for the big things:
- I'm thankful for vacation days! I love my job but also having time off is an amazing gift. I'm thankful to have a job that gives me the opportunity to be off sometimes.
- I'm thankful for my husband. I've been getting ready to have a friend stay over before we head out of town this weekend. He's been amazing helping out with some of the cleaning and with puppy duty.
- I'm thankful for creativity and actually having the follow through to finish up my friend's baby shower gift.
- I'm thankful for the ability to take a road trip to Durango.
- I'm thankful for friends and catching up :)
Here's a picture of the diaper bag and other items that I made for my friend's baby shower. I can't wait to give them to her on Saturday :)
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